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Knight in Shining Armor by lavinia, literature

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Knight in Shining Armor

Have you ever wanted something so bad You would sell the moon and the stars? Have you ever desired someone so much It made you cry to think about them? Can it be possible to really have found Someone as perfect as you? My knight in shining armor. Has anyone\'s eyes transfixed you With a gaze thats filled you with love? Can one just melt into existance In the arms of one they care so much for? Can it be true in any way That you might possibly care for me too? My knight in shining armor. Can the world really stop spinning The moment you step into a room? Did my heart really skip a beat When you told me you loved me? Why can\'

-Breathe- by lavinia, literature

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-Breathe-

I cannot stand to live in this hell This burning pile of shit that swells Until I cannot stand to breathe. I feel lost in my identity This world is dying, I\'m no longer free. And still my lungs refuse to breathe. Your eyes, once glowing, now seem spent. They appear so foreign, fragile, deathly vacant. As I fall, I fight to breathe. Your words, which once embraced me tight Now I\'ve lost them, I don\'t feel right. Without your love I cannot breathe. The blackened world is so bleak and gray, I wander the streets, trying to find my way Back to you so I can breathe. Each day goes by, harder to survive. P

Solitude and Isolation by lavinia, literature

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Solitude and Isolation

The most beautiful sound in the world Silence No parents screaming about money or politics or what was-or-wasn\'t done No blaring TVs fighting for the attention of the \"adults\" The\"adults\" who are too self absorbed to notice the pain of their own daughter. Even the cat knows it is a serene moment and keeps excess noise to a minimum. A slight hum, growing and growing Tiny Dancer plays in the background In my stocking feet I dance Dance around the house in a daze The music pulls me left and right My cat stares at me Drastic sound change Everything I do, I do it for you Depressing, painful memories Tears well up in my eyes T

Solitude and Isolation by lavinia, literature

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Solitude and Isolation

Love Misery by lavinia, literature

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Love Misery

To stop loving you is to die To say I hate you is a lie I eat, sleep, breathe your memory I dream of everything you mean to me Always there, never spoken Words are useless when a heart is broken True love is a fantasy Conjured by a heart of misery A heart filled to the brim With a light that starts to dim All hope is gone for love now I can't honestly say why or how But you've left my life forever Content to be a drifter From this life to the next Away from me, and your past If I had told you how I love you Would you have stayed for me? Or left anyway Trying to find a way to be free

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The Abuse- My Pain by lavinia, literature

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The Abuse- My Pain

My Pain The color and light pierces my brain. This pain is unbearable. Where did I go wrong? What did I do to deserve this pain? Nothing. I did nothing. I allowed you to beat me, to abuse my body and my mind. I am at fault. I am weak. I should fight back, Raise my hand against in glory against the abuse. But you will only harm me more. More bruises to hide. The coppery taste of blood once against on my tongue. It just hurts so bad, this pain and suffering. Why me? You say you love me, you feel so bad afterward. I know its my fault, your gifts only making the mental wounds deeper. I feel no love for you. You disgust me. How

Harvest Offerings by lavinia, literature

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Harvest Offerings

Harvest Offerings The stars sparkle against the pitch, The time of night for a ghost or witch. Time has told of ages gone, But the evil and witchcraft still go on. The wolves howl somewhere in the night, A bone-chilling sound that echoes with fright. A man appears, tall and gray, Never has he seen the day. He beckons to us in the night. Magic covering any movement's mark. With him I travel, a joyful prance, He moves slightly behind with quiet chance. This night a busy one will be, For magic revealed I will soon see. To dinner, with elves, we travel this night, Once a yer under the harvest moon's light. Pagan magic we will

Pane of Glass by lavinia, literature

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Pane of Glass

Pane of Glass You look through me like a pain of glass. You say you feel love for me, but you don't. And why should you? I devoted myself to you. My selfish, tortured soul depended on you for survival, And you cast me away like a plague-ridden rat. Forever suffering in tears for the love I once felt. But I am not like the others. I will not fade away into the background. I will not allow myself to rot in the pit of those who came before. The pain and I love I feel for you is strong, My will, my desire for happiness and life is stronger. I will not fall like those before me. I am beyond you're sick, twisted, sadistic ways. I

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Fragile Castles Inside by lowra, literature

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Fragile Castles Inside

Fragile Castles Inside What happens when you can't cry? I'm afraid to sigh To free the demons tearing and wretching at my soul And let you breathe them in again. But I can't cry for you Again today I saw you And everything, Every memory was brought back before my eyes And fallacies, Smiles farce conform to our faces To hide everything we both know we're thinking. You know you betrayed my trust, I know our silent embrace scarred you, You know you've left me lost, I know you realize I'm here. And you used to have a way that enchanted me. I fell for what we could be But then you threw it away with one cold stare And I felt nak

Without You - Moxy by moxy, literature

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Without You - Moxy

~Without You~ My life hasn't been the same since you came into it I've grown in ways I never thought I would Gotten me to change in ways I didn't think i could My life will never be the same now that you've left it I'm sitting here alone now, wishing you were mine To stop thinking about you would be to stop breathing To stop wishing you were back would be to give up hope To live my life without you is the same as being dead Now my laughter is bitter, filled with anger and spite There was a hole where my heart held you Now there's a pit where the whole used to be I don't know how to keep from feeling this way I'm not sure that you

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Hes Different and Thats Bad by lavinia, literature

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Hes Different and Thats Bad

Title: He is Different and That is Bad Freeze Let's take a closer look at this image, shall we? A class room Four groups- one in each corner Zoom in on boy in the center of the room Middle desk, alone Illuminated purely by the fact that he is different He is alone He stands out. Resume Pan left. Group A. Five girls, all the same Perfect hair in perfect ponytails Perfect make-up, perfect teeth Perfect clothes, revealing tops and bell bottoms Perfect chests and perfect hips One is pregnant and doesn't know it Two have STDs and are too afraid to tell anyone The other 2? They will die Murdered At the hands of a jealous girl

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Deviant for 22 years
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Current Residence: In a van, down by the river
Favourite genre of music: no country, and no rap, everything else
Favourite style of art: fire, waves
MP3 player of choice: Kazaa
Wallpaper of choice: faeries
Skin of choice: Rust
Favourite cartoon character: Felix the Cat
Personal Quote: If you do anything, do it with passion. Without passion there is no difference.

Favourite Movies

The Goonies

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

whoa, you want me to PICK?

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Anonymous

Favourite Games

Mah Jong, D&D

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lavinia

May 15, 2003

This is a regularly scheduled

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I'm just gettin my groove on! Even when the world ends, and the pain has left us, a familiar plague will sweep the land, and it will kill the little of us finally left to survive... Hopefully we will be those people.

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lavinia

Feb 17, 2003

me again

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I fucking hate myself. I can never go to a dance again. This fucking sucks really bad. I just hate myself SO much right now. I'm such a bitch. Even when the world ends, and the pain has left us, a familiar plague will sweep the land, and it will kill the little of us finally left to survive... Hopefully we will be those people.

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lavinia

Feb 13, 2003

me

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I am an attention whore. Complete and utter attention whore. I like to know that at all times I am the center of attention, I am on everyone's mind. That no matter what, at least ONE person is giving me attention. Even in my most depressed moods, when all I want is to be alone- even THEN I want to know that everyone KNOWS I want to be alone, I want them to acknowlege the fact that they know. It CRUSHES me to think that I'm not on someone's mind at all times. I'm a selfish bitch. Even when the world ends, and the pain has left us, a familiar plague will sweep the land, and it will kill the little of us finally left to survive... Hopeful

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clearbreach

May 15, 2003

Thank you for the comment on my experimental b&w&colour photo, I really appreciate it!

Best wishes to you always,

Andrew

spyed

Apr 10, 2003

Have you ever had a dream, that you were so sure was real? What if you were unable to wake from that dream? How would you know the difference between the dream world and the real world?

What you know you can't explain, but you feel it. You've felt it your entire deviant life, that there's something wrong with the story. You don't know what it is, but it's there, like a splinter in your mind, driving you mad.

You take the blue pill, the story ends. Your browser closes and you believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill, you stay in wonderland. And, I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.

I offer only the truth, nothing more.

Take: The Red Pill
Take: The Blue Pill

Fella

spyed, nobody has ever done this before.
Ninja

I know. That's why it's going to work.

Do not try and bend the spoon ...

rupertknowsbest

Apr 3, 2003

HeY! thank you for stopping by and leaving a comment :) (Smile)

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the "cute guy" band's website ;) (Wink)

maiden13

Feb 18, 2003

Thanks for the comment. and i do hope he's fine. Great work you have here! keep it up :smiles: the world will so be a better place.

billybobbacon

Jan 28, 2003

Thank you very much for the comment. Im not into photograpy very much, this is just a fast taken pic for the movie I and my friends where making. But it turnd out quite good.

rupertknowsbest

Jan 2, 2003

hehe we're twins then :P (Lick)

thanx for the comment

maverickghent

Dec 22, 2002

hey, thanks for the poe comment, i may try and go for the modern poe style now...